I walk into the bathroom naked, close the door, and turn off the light. After a moment my eyes adjust and I can see well enough in the shadows. I run the water in the shower very hot and commence bathing.

I don't need to really look at anything. I can feel my way around fine. I like the darkness, it shuts the whole world out. So I'm just alone with my thoughts.

I find myself crying, in shuddering sobs.

But it's okay. It is. I'll get clean.