breathe, dip into the water and go under it all and hold yourself alone

Saturday, April 11, 2009

I walk into the bathroom naked, close the door, and turn off the light. After a moment my eyes adjust and I can see well enough in the shadows. I run the water in the shower very hot and commence bathing.

I don't need to really look at anything. I can feel my way around fine. I like the darkness, it shuts the whole world out. So I'm just alone with my thoughts.

I find myself crying, in shuddering sobs.

But it's okay. It is. I'll get clean.


greg said...

I hope you are doing ok. Do you still have the same email?

Desiree said...

I should be happy. There is a lot to be happy for.

I still have the same email. Write me. It would be nice to talk again.

vinny said...

I don't like the darkness. It scares me.

I sleep to shut the world out - be it with meds, with alcohol, whatever. As long as I'm asleep and not dreaming, I have peace.

Some things, are hard to come by.

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