breathe, dip into the water and go under it all and hold yourself alone

Sunday, July 31, 2016

i understand the need to be wary,
but impenetrable? 
how do i prove i am not the enemy? 
i bleed myself open 
as if my sacrifice could be 
a meaningful testament
but no. 
the only meaning you find is in loathing
and your calculation of this giant debt
the world owes you

everything has shifted,
and it's better kept out of your sight.
out of range from your stupid selfish radar

til you learn
what it means
to love. 

boundary lines have all been reset
to include a generous buffer zone.
because i know you'll keep walking 
with your knives out, 
ever-ready and vicious

til you learn
what it means
to feel safe.

it's always going to be the same shit
even when i think it's a New scene
until i learn, yeah I'm learning
that it's not so hard as i thought. 
and i can be stronger. 

Thursday, July 28, 2016

the coldness takes over me finally, a virus
eating away at me, eating my warmth,
robbing me

i am
carving a perfect version of my heart

like a block of marble
fromthe outside in

breathing life into stone
a vision buried beneath the surface

hungry cold slow death becomes me
but with weak hands
i envision life anew

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

thesame dark sirens lure me into the rocks repeatedly, but just bc i fall for it every time doesn't mean I'm stupid. it's the song, and it Will always own me, until i can finally lay this ache in my heart to rest.

My photo
mind open, heart enlarged, soul receptive

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"Are you becoming what you always hated?" --- Charles Bukowski